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The Plane Ride
For the first time in years, I did something completely on my own. Yesterday, I wrote about pushing myself outside of my comfort zone.About learning how to do things alone.About trying to rebuild parts of myself that I lost somewhere along the way. And recently, I pushed myself further than I have in a very…
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The Person I Miss Most Is Me
Lately, I’ve realized something that feels both heartbreaking and strangely freeing. The thing I miss most isn’t my marriage. It’s me. And honestly… I’m not even sure who I am anymore. Somewhere over the last twenty years, my identity stopped being about me as a person. It stopped being about what I loved.What excited me.What…
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He Did
I was joking around with one of those internet trends. “The devil couldn’t reach me.” And the response was supposed to be: “He did.” At first, it felt dramatic. Maybe even funny. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized how true it actually was. Because sometimes destruction doesn’t look like chaos.…
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Nothing Happened… And Yet Everything Did
There wasn’t one big, dramatic moment that made me realize I needed to leave. No single event I can point to and say, that’s when everything changed. It was the small things. The things that didn’t happen. The missed holidays.The quiet dinners with no real conversation.The absence of deeper connection—the kind that makes you feel…
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The Moment I Realized I Felt Nothing
I stepped outside just as the sun was starting to set. It was one of those quiet moments that almost doesn’t feel real. The kind you don’t plan for. You just happen to be there when it unfolds. The sky slowly shifted from light to dark.Clouds went from white… to orange… to deep red… and…
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Why I’ve Never Taken the First Step
I was watching an episode of Scrubs today. It was one of those moments where something simple hits harder than it should. JD said,“In my personal life, I don’t take any chances either. I want to… I just never seem to take that first step.” And I felt that in my core. That has always…
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The Moment I Realized I Could Want More
I have been married for over 20 years. That’s a long time to build a life. A long time to build habits. A long time to convince yourself that what you’re living in is just… what life is supposed to feel like. I have two adult children who are my entire world. They are the…